Monday, 25 February 2013

and, MIA

I hate being this busy, and having SO much to do, and no time to do it. I've been taking things at school a little to slack lately, and my grades have been reflecting that. But I can't do half asses work anymore. I have to get a certain GPA to stay in the co-op program, as well as get scholarship awards. 

I'm wondering if I bit off more than I can chew this time.

Or maybe I just need to shut the F up, and get to work, right? That seems like the better option.

What this all basically means is that I'll be MIA for a few weeks. I'm hoping to get some posts done maybe in mid-March. I hope. If things go well, that is.

Twitter will still be (semi) updated 
Tumblr might get the occasional update, but its all stuff that I like, so I dunno.
Facebook will be super irregular, and only checked on my phone while en route to school
Instagram will also be spotty at best.

See you guys in March!

Saturday, 16 February 2013

My new Project

I know I mentioned that I had a project on the go before, and now, here is its official (?) announcement. Or something. That project is put on hold. Here is a new project instead!
It's still in its very early stages, and there is still a lot of planning to go, but I feel that it's time to let the world know what I got going on. I guess.

I am writing a book. Well, in a way. I am collecting stories and photos and, along with my own stories and photos and commentary and compiling them into a book.
What kind of book, you ask?

A book about cutting.

Not bodybuilding cutting, but, blade to skin, blood welling kind of cutting.

This is something that is very personal to me, and I think that its important that the truth gets out there, so that the people who suffer can get proper help. The media has demonized cutters, and those who suffer from self hate, and most of it simply isn't true. Instead of helping, most people end up hurting us even more, driving us to hate ourselves more for not being perfect.

This needs to stop.

That said, I am looking for submissions from current and former self-harmers. Short stories, thoughts, feeling, blurbs, photos, poetry ANYTHING. So, please, spread the word to anyone you know that can help out. Those who submit have the option of being credited for their input, or remaining anonymous. I will never give  out the identity of someone who wishes to remain unknown.

Once this book gets made, majority of the proceeds will go to various mental help clinics, and help groups.

So, please help me with this project if you can! Spread the word, submit, and do whatever you can!

Submissions can be sent to

Saturday, 9 February 2013

Emilie Autumn

"We fight for the dream; we fight to the death; we fight for control"-Fight like a girl
 As I mentioned all over the place, excessively, I went to see Emilie Autumn at her Vancouver show.
And you know what? It was SO worth all my hype. I seriously have nothing to complain about.

She played almost her entire new album, which I unfortunately did not have time to get used to before the show, but it was alright. She did play some of her older tunes, and I was quite pleased with that.

But, one of the amazingly cool things about Emilie Autumn is that it isn't just a concert. It's a show.
There was music, burlesque, fire dancing, and more. It was like being at a side show where the ringleader is insanely beautiful, talented and pissed off.

It was part theatrical performance, part concert, part carnival and all maniacally fantastic.

One of my favourite things about the music is that she actually gets what its like to be not alright. I know that I've mentioned it before-briefly-but there was a large part of my life where I was not alright, and finding someone who knows, and not just pretends to know for attention, is really refreshing, and also empowering. Her lyrics touch on the idea that it's hard to get back to functioning "normally" and that it is all about choice. The choice to find your way back to a sanctuary, or to stay in the prison of your mind.

"We waged a war with Hell, and look, we still survive. But just because we live does not mean that we're alive. We've won the final round, but how to enjoy the win. When we've been broken down and we'll never know what could have been. Heaven help us, how do we begin? One foot in front of the other."-One foot in front of the other
It was a super fun concert/show, and one that I will happily go to again. I was entertained, touched, and felt loved all at the same time.

Ah, and my outfit! I promised a photo of it! And I shall honour that promise! If you want to know where I got anything, feel free to message me!

Here is a video that I took of Fight like a Girl. I'm not a very good videographer, but, whatever. You get to see how fun it was <3

Monday, 4 February 2013

Photos from school

I promised you guys some photos from my awesome on a mountain school. I finally bothered to connect my phone to my laptop, so here's a bunch of photos that are school related. Mostly.

Saturday, 2 February 2013


So, I am super duper excited! I get to go see Emilie Autumn in concert this Tuesday! *happy dance*
She is a fabulous electro/goth/classical violinist who is part opera, part Victorian and all asylum. I love her. Like, woah. I mean, look at her! She's so beautiful, and talented, and I am insanely excited that I get to see her live.

I've already planned an occasion appropriate outfit. Which I will post after the show, when I have my concert photos and (maybe) video.

This will also be my first concert since seeing Slipknot and Deftones, where my husband proposed to me. Yes, he did propose at a Slipknot concert-awesome, right?
Anyways, I am really looking forward to this, because a. I love her and b. most of the musicians that I love never come to Vancouver, so this is kinda rare and awesome for me. Sure, its a school night, and right after I have a midterm, but whatever. Sometimes, things are worth a little less sleep.
And, for those of you who don't know who she is, here is one of my fave songs. Enjoy!